just keep running

the resemblance was uncanny.

the face came into my line of sight. for a fraction of a second, my heart froze. somehow i regained my composure and continued acting normal. the next time i tried to look, she was gone. could it really be her?

i struggled to let it go and go ahead with the matter at hand. apparently some loser speaking at the Suntec Ballroom 2 had emphasized that focusing was important to success. i succeeded after what seemed like a lifetime. i retraced my original seat in the ballroom ad waited for the next event to start. (this would later turn out to be a hell of a talk by some movtivational speaker who was funny like hell yet managed to deliver substance. impressive.)

the mainly njc/hcjc/rjc crowd began to stream in. i was feeling somewhat inferior. a group of girls settled down at the row in front of me. one of the shirts read "NJC ORIENTATION". i took no notice. not much anyway.

that was until, i saw the face once more.

seated less than 2 m away, the face looked vaguely familiar. yet she was with a group of nj-ians. i contemplated the possibiltiy of her hanging out with nj-ians. it seemed pretty impossible to me. but hell, adidas says impossible is nothing.

the last time i saw 2 different looking so alike was the last time i sawe a pair of twins. i studied the face a little while more, having an added advantage of being at the back. the hair was the same pony-tail. similar sense of dressing. the face was exactly the same. change the specs, it would be like a clone. even the way she talked, laughed and scratched her face was more or less similar. could it really be her? here in a ballroom at suntec? with a grp of nj-ians? or was it just someone else that looked really really really really (i can't stress it more) like her? what would happen if it was really her? i spent half the talk thinking and looking.

i was quite determined to find out the answer. i figured i'll get my chance when the time comes to fill up the survey. i remember seeing a portion requiring the school's name. my answer would be there.

the moment of truth finally came. i was filled with mixed feelings when i saw "NJC" plastered all over the line. as they stood up to walk away, i looked at her for a few final moments. i figured that was the closest i'll ever get next to the real thing. they walked out of the ballroom, with the 'imitation' churning back memories.

so it was nothing more than a small little reminiscing session.

(just for that record, i felt a tap on my shoudler on my way out. for a split second i thought my eyes had betrayed me when i saw "NJC" on the survey form and that my suspicions were about confirmed. turns out it was a group of nyjcians that wanted to confirm i was from ny as well. i had to fight the temptation of saying "yeah, im from that fughed-up sch as well.") @ 23:38

if God could solve problems, He ain't solving any of mine. @ 23:04

pw's like a relentless murderer. it doesn't give up. not until you're dead at least.

first there was the PI. after changing topics 3 times and 5-6 drafts later, you'l realise the nightmare jus begun.

den came the GPP. thick as a bloody thesis. i heard the PW HOD got scared after seeing our GPP. 4 drafts. together with a whole load of shit and ripping off somewhere. =x

exams came. PW was forgotten for a few wks, prob the best wks around. you'll think the nightmare's over. until the results came back and your PW teacher starts screaming.

surveys, interviews. taking a gazillion years to draft out good surveys. expanding, shrinking and expanding again. drafting letters to every single company you could think of. u name it, i'l bet they recieved at least 1 PW letter from some miserable group of teenagers begging for an interview.

and they happily reject it.

with the on-going surveys and inteviews, you'll think you could take a break. think again.

EOM comes in. i've yet to experience the magnitude of the terror EOM can bring, but i guess it'll be soon. in under 12 hrs i'll be submitting draft 1 of my EOM, one that was done with an article hastily found from god knows where and done with my eye-lids half-way down my eyes. after printing i noticed a zillion spelling errors that went unoticed by Word cause i disabled spell check. i hate red wavy lines telling you you're wrong.

in the months to come, there's WR, I&R and OP. i guess each will take a substantial amount of time and a part of my sanity together with it. but it's all in the name of the pursuit for knowledge, no?

ohhhh, project work is so much fun. @ 23:07

out of the blue, i saw the name. totally unexpected. for as long as i rmb, i've always sat in front of my computer, waiting for this to happen.

now it's different.

i let the cursor hover over the name for a minute or so, contemplating the consequences if i made that godly move. yes. no. yes. no.

why not?

with everything i had, i started to begin.

no wait. i can't. don't ask me why. just couldn't. negative.

just as sudden as it appeared, it disappeared, leaving me alone with the thoughts that had engulfed my mind in the past half a year or so. with no other option left, i crawled back to my math tutorial, too distracted and unfocused to continue.

bah. @ 22:15

was talking to ernest.

{^Lt^ Hawk} Let the magic begin. says:
damn it i screwed up all
{^Lt^ Hawk} Let the magic begin. says:
not one pass
{^Lt^ Hawk} Let the magic begin. says:
one econs sub pass
{^Lt^ Hawk} Let the magic begin. says:
can you do me a favour?
JIAJIE | says:
which is?
{^Lt^ Hawk} Let the magic begin. says:
hang me on the 100m live range and switch your rifle to auto
JIAJIE | says:
HAHA
JIAJIE | says:
aint that bad isit
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{^Lt^ Hawk} Let the magic begin. says:
sian la. i think i dun wanna study liao. demoralised. next yr i go be porn star. i go ask tammy if she want to star me in her next video. porn star no need qualification

HAHAHAHA. fugging funny. rofl. @ 23:48

found in the company office. LOOK AT THE FRIGGING MONTH.

this thing is a bloody antique. @ 23:14

it's been too long. @ 23:15

20% cohort passed math.

or u can choose to say that 80% failed.

or least that's what i heard. we'll just wait for tmr. i'll be happy if i get anywhere near 10 marks of the passing mark. rofl. @ 22:34

ripped from here.



do realise ncc land is the only cca that has sustained the Gold Award since 2001.(actually it dates back to 1994 but i guess they refused to say so cause our boys cause too much trouble in the staff room.) sorry for poor quality of pic. =x

i'm going to need a miracle to get past econs tmw. @ 22:47

the unthinkable has happened.

brazil is out. bookies all over the nation must be super happpppy.

which reminds me. i still owe liang money over some matches. =.=

oh well. choose to ignore. haha.

i've been tagged. again. twice.at that. both by osborne. lol.

First up:
1.What were you doing in secondary school?
ok this is tacky. doing stupid things. getting pumped over stupid reasons. pumping ppl over stupid reasons. doing drills. sleeping in class. pissing yiliang off over his height. ripping lam off.(hey, gp did this more than i did.)a lot more other stuff. in general having a good time.

2. Five of your favorites singers or bands?
i)Linkin Park.
ii)Fort Minor.
iii)Avenged Sevenfold.
iv)Blink 182.
v)3 Doors Down.

3. Five things you would do if you were a millionaire?
i)kill pchan and establish myself as Principal of tk.
ii)demolish the band.
iii)give umlimited benefits to TkNccLand and maybe(just maybe) a bit to Sea.
iv)send jasmine poh to iran.
v)get a pool table.

4. Five things you like to do?
i)pool.
ii)knocking ppl down.(as in, pumping.)
iii)watch LOST.
iv)listen to LP.
v)going back to tk.

5. Five things you will never get?
i)H3 chem.
ii)that pair of silver wings.
iii)the red beret.
iv)old times in tk.
v)her.

6. Five favorites?
i)pool.
ii)my room.
iii)my comp.
iv)my mp3.
v)the unit.

7. Five people to do this quiz?
wa piang. same 5 as the previous one lah.

and here's the second one.

in 5s -

5 snacks i enjoy:
i)BK.
ii)peanut pancake.
iii)kopi-peng.
iv)popiah.
v)tu-tu kueh or that flat cake shit.

5 songs i know all the words to:
i)most LP songs.
ii)most FM songs.
iii)Landing in London by 3 Doors Down.
iv)What Went Wrong by Blink 182.
v)Best I've Ever Had by Vertical Horizon.

5 things i would do with 100 million dollars:
same lah.
i)kill pchan and establish myself as Principal of Tk.
ii)demolish the band.
iii)give umlimited benefits to TkNccLand and maybe(just maybe) a bit to Sea.
iv)send jasmine poh to iran.
v)get a pool table.

5 places i would run away to:
i)new zealand. it's called thunder warrior.
ii)to my room.
iii)to the toilet.
iv)to Tk.
v)rock am ring in germany.
5 things i would never wear:
i)a tkband shirt
ii)a tkband pants.
iii)a tight fit shirt.
iv)hotpants.
v)disposable underwear.

5 bad habits:
i)swearing. it's in the genes.
ii)wearing low pants.
iii)talking too loudly.
iv)worrying excessively. and i mean excessively. i could worry for the Olympics and get a Gold medal.
v)thinking too much.

5 biggest joys.
i)going to another LP gig.
ii)going for training.
iii)listening to LP.
iv)blogging.
v)knowing her.

5 favourite toys:
wtf?
i)the thing on my bed next to my pillow.
that kinda settles it cos that thing happens to be the only toy i have.

5 fictional characters i would date:
i)kitty pryde from X3. no doubt about this.
ii)hermione granger. that babe from harry potter.
iii)arwen from LOTR.
iv)susan pevensie from the chronicles of narnia: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe.
v)patrick from spongebob squarepants.

5 pple i shall tag to do this:
ok wtfage. same as the previous one.

wad's with the 5s sia? @ 22:32

they won.

ok fine. so their standard was higher RELATIVE to the other 2 bands. but im still sore bout them winning. so they do spend 90% of their time training their asses off in the sun. they do deserve some recognition.

BUT. recognition is NOT glorification. just cos they win the title for what, 3/4 times running doesnt make them god. but apparently this bitch sitting in the office in tk feels so. pump money here and there, give never ending speeches bout them, hire professionals for the slightest matter, engaging external contractors for props. can u imagine how much money they spent on today?

other ccas put in as much effort. the choir has gold with honours and i don't see the bitch talking bout them. ncc sea had their 1st gold and won seacomp. that bitch takes the trophy. ncc land has been gold for 11 running years and the bitch takes that achievement as nothing. we got Overall Champion for last year's shooting comp. who knows? ncc song plays and ppl laugh. and they think it's cool to be shouting some ba-kut-teh cheer at the stadium. other ccas aren't getting their well-deserved recognition. all just because their definition of success doesn't involve a national award.

the thought of it is disgusting. how much money do u waste bi-annually for that title? i bet the money won back get can't even cover your losses. ppl say that they have won fame for the school all over the nation. those sorry bastards don't seem to see that the fame doesn't belong to the school. it belongs to the band. the money thrown into gaining the fame could have easily been put to better use, like better toilets in the school with decent ventalition and better water flow. but no, it goes into building a mini taj mahal piece of shit.

band members, hate my guts for saying all this. but believe me, i'm not the only on thinking this way. and not only students feel this way as well. @ 23:19